I want to kill myself because

Nobody cares bout me
Nobody notices me
Nobody value me

They are upset because of me
They are mad because of me
They are sad because of me
Their life is partly miserable because of me

I don't want to live my life anymore
I don't want to bring worries for them anymore
I don't want them to be happy when I'm not here anymore

They say is their fault when argue happen between us
They say bad things happen because of some other reasons
but i know it's because of me i bring them miserable

I want to disappear
If i do not exist in this world,
they have no worries anymore
If i do not exist in this world,
they will not blame themselves for me

I am useless
I am a troublemaker
I can't do anything right

Everyone is lying to me
I live in a pool of lie nobody will ever understand
I need to live in this lie so nobody else gets hurt
I might just die with the lie,
so nobody knows
so everyone will live their peaceful life

When i say I want to die
I don't want to live anymore
I want to kill myself
That is when people notice me

why

why only now you know my existence and value
oh wait, because I don't value in your lifes even I value all of you
but nobody cares
this world nobody cares each other

i'm a freak
i have mental problem
i have depression
i am tired

i don't want to dissapoint anyone anymore
i don't want to upset anyone anymore
i don't want to make anyone get hurt anymore
i don't want to live anymore

leave me alone