Tomato lied

4.30am Brisbane City *i'm not asleep yet* 

Well, another midnight bedtime story.

First, let's name my housemate: tomato

It was midnight, I suddenly had stomachache and went to the toilet,

 I heard tomato was talking with someone in the room, but

 I had no much time to care about because I really need to have my me-time.

After I came out,

 I heard sobbing sounds from tomato's room

I was just curious

 deciding whether to go in to see whether tomato is okay or not. 

But after that, 

tomato opened the door and saw me. 

The lights were all off,

 of course tomato was shocked to see a girl in white and long hair standing outside the room,

 whom was me. I didn't intend to shock him.

So, tomato asked wtf am I doing outside the room.

 I told him I went for me-time. 

Well, tomato didn't believe it so I told tomato to go to smell the bathroom and

 tomato did it *eww lol*,

 Then I asked back why did tomato suddenly came out.

 Tomato said tomato needs to drink water.

 (And then, drank the water taken from own desk inside tomato's room) 

*I was like, erm, I thought you can just drink from your room why come out 

-suspicious-*

Then I asked, are you alright?

 I heard you sobbing inside there. 

Tomato said tomato was playing computer games and

 heard someone coming out of the bathroom,

 so came out to see who is it. 

Oh, then I asked, only playing computer games?

 Tomato answered, yeah playing computer games. 

Then I asked like 3-4 times, and

 tomato answered the same answer,   

 which made me very disappointing..

Tomato was still in shock and scared. 

I told tomato, 

when people do wrong things only you get scared.

 Tomato said, I really got shocked just now.

 And I said "you know what I meant, but now, don't waste my sleeping time on you, Goodnight. 

Then I choose to leave and feeling really sad.

Tomato lied...again..

Not once, but many times.. 

The sad thing is people lie and thought other's really believed it. 

For other's who knows the truth,

 it's really sad when they are lying straight into their eyes.

Why lie?

Protection for the person who lied to?

Well, everyone is selfish, 

we'll probably create a lie to protect ourselves from other people's view.

But just damn it, 

when the other person is hinting you by keep asking you the same question over and over again, means it's fucking obvious they know you're lying and 

they are freaking giving you a chance to clear yourself from this trust issue. 

But sometimes, 

liars are freaking blind to take this opportunity to wipe their mistakes.

Throwing out a white lie, 

people think that won't hurt. 

But,

 in some circumstances like if the "victim" doesn't know the truth,

 then no one gets hurt (for now) and play along. 

If the "victim" knows the truth, 

even a little lie would hurt and question the value in the friendship in terms like 

"why do you choose to lie to me in such SMALL matter!!???"

Everyone lies. 

Yet, people get hurt from lies depending how much they value and

 care for that liar*cough*.. that person.

 The more you are worth in their life,

 the more hurtful it is when they realised you're lying to them. 

The people who hurt you the most, 

are the ones that swore they never would. 

Even it's a pretty small case and they choose to lie,

 which seems that they really don't want you to get in their way,

 since it's like that, then well,

 let's don't waste our time and mental on people who doesn't know to appreciate a friendship. 

Just let it go, it must be a reason why they lie. 

Yet, it's just sad that people chose to go for the shortcut by lying, 

where it will hurt some people,

 In order to get something,

 you'll need to lose something,

 can't get it all.

For me, I would forgive people who lied to me,

 but doesn't mean that I would trust them as much as before. 

Trust is like a paper, once it's crumpled,

 it can't be perfect.

 Well, you can't think everything is going to be perfect in your own way. 

Since everyone is living in their own world, 

we might just enjoy ours too. 

Less caring, less worry.

Life is marvelous when you're laughing, 

so watch runningman. Kwangsoo is awesome!